When I First Discovered BDSM and Knew I Loved It
I had always been a kinky guy. At 23, I have been around the lifestyle scene in New York City full circle. You name it, from Swinging, orgies, sensual massage, and bull play; I loved sex. However, BDSM was still a mystery to me. All I knew about it was that there were ropes and handcuffs; for some reason, I envisioned chains.
Anna:
When I met Anna on craigslist, I knew I had found a long-time partner. She was sexy as hell, kinky as fuck, and the funniest woman I had ever met. I had hit the jackpot. However, I noticed something about her that differed from my other hookups. Every time we fucked, I saw bruises and welt marks. I didn't ask her about it. I knew we were not monogamous, and she loved rough sex. Who doesn't?
Then it happened, towards the end of a rough sex escapade, she turned to me and said, "slap my ass, daddy." I had done that once and a while and loved hearing my partner scream. Then she whispered in my ear and said, "use this," referring to the paddle she had in her hand. I had never used a paddle before. But, the idea sounded energizing. I began my first smack, which turned into 30. Her ass was blood red, tears in her eyes as she asked for more and screamed with every smack. Then it hit me. I had never been more aroused. My cock was harder than I had ever been.
Anna noticed how hard I was and then told me, "you can do what you want to me, daddy." I didn't hesitate and grabbed her and threw her down on the bed onto her back and began fucking her pussy hard and fast feeling her pussy pulsating as she started to cum after 14 minutes of pounding. Even though I had cum twice already, I was still hard. Seeing visions of me spanking her in my mind. I then wanted to hear her scream and moan, and said, "I want to fuck your ass." She nodded. I switched from her pussy to her tight asshole and fucked her there for another 20 minutes. With every thrust, I could hear her moaning in pain at times because her ass was so tight. With every moan, I got harder and more turned on. Sweat and tears were coming down her face. She then grabbed my hands and wrapped them around her neck, and I began to squeeze slightly, looking into her teary eyes.
As I began to cum, I covered her belly with a fresh hot load. I had never cum that hard before or had been that turned on. I knew I had entered a new world of eroticism that I enjoyed and loved.
Embarrassment:
Following that encounter with Anna, I felt embarrassed, and that I had become some kind of psycho. Who choaks are girl they like and fucks a girl's ass who has told you that she thinks anal hurts, I thought to myself. Then she called me. I first thought she was calling to say; I never want to see you again. But, I was wrong. She said, "I enjoyed last night. You fucked me like a sadist god." Come with me to this party Saturday, I want you to meet some people."
Community:
That Saturday, I went to my first munch with Anna, and discovered nothing was wrong with me. And it was ok to enjoy the experience. If you are new to this lifestyle, don't ever think you are crazy. There is always someone else in BDSM that is into the same thing and has gone through similar feelings. Let's face it our society tends to frown on sex.
For the next year, we played with others and learned more about our love for bondage sadism and masochism, and control. I found my tribe of non-judgmental folks who wanted to just have fun. Well, fun with our clothes off.
